Roxy caruso

I'm.loving roxy so much right now our bond is indescribable I raised her since I was 13 and she has turned out to be the cooles best dog ever I can't ever raise a dog like this again I dunno what I did right but she is fuckingperfect and so smart different than other dofs. It makes me feel like I'm.a good dad

butts

Ateam spoof

Roxy in black and white singing.pastries pastries

ATM dream

 today i woke up from a pretty odd yet good dream.  I was living in my same apartment in brokeland but my roomate and i shared a room, also that person alternated their presence between my girlfirend and roomate.  We woke up and there was an ATM in our room we started breaking down the sides of the walls and i unplugged it so we wouldn't get electrofied. we got the siding off and saw bundles and fat stacks of cash.  it was almost caged in and we couldn't pull it out.  stupidly we decided to take it downstairs in ghetto ass brooklyn and leave it outside by our trash while we went and retrieved a crowbar from somewhere???  we returned to find the ATM missing.  I instinctively looked across the street to see a beautiful picket fence home with a suburban yard. it was a bit out of place in the middle of trash city.  i knew the person there was a young russian gangster. I told my roomate/girlfriend alternating personality thing that i was going to go get our atm back.  i asked him if he had it and just handed me 100$. he told me his uncle had pulled some big strings and took the atm from a local prison.  I didn't even question the fact that there was an ATM in a prison. so i end up saying to him that i need the money from it, or atleast 1000$.  i told him come on he wouldnt have even had it if it wasn't for me.  he said his uncle dropped it off and he wouldn't spare it, for some reason i knew it was 30,000 dollars in the machine.  I wanted to get atleast a piece of that, after trying to convince him and drinking tea or whatever it was he turned into a russian house wives as his/her kids walked in through the door. i was suddenly unable to speak of this subject in front of her kids and she began being a mother. i left dissapointed.

how to pray

how to pray

how an atheist prays, takes a knife cuts little slits along the veins on his ballsack. he mixes the blood with gasoline and styrofoam. spreads the napalm on his chest in a circle and lights it on fire. when its finished burning he rolls up his dead skin and smokes it.

sado masochist, gets a razor blade and slits little cuts on the body when the oxygen hits there blood it releases their spirit.  then they lick the blood of their own body in the name of there christ.

how a hillbilly prays he gets down on his knees, opens the cooler lid reaches in and pulls out a cold one takes a sip, and says my god this beer tastes good.

how a teacher they have to write on the chalkboard 100 times then at the end of the day they erase it and say “i’m glad is over.”

how a lunatic prays they stare at the moon for hours until it disappears, when god sheds the light of day. they continue staring they shit down their leg and keep staring at the funny little man in the moon.

how a trucker prays in walkie talkie code, jesus you gotta copy? 10-4 good buddy.  thanks for all the stuff amen over and out.

how a fetus prays off its mother.  i hope i’m not in her ass.

how the president prays no new taxes. god bless this nation and please don’t let me shit my pants in front of all these people.

how a marine prays unit core god country.

how murder prays god let me get away with this or i’ll kill you to.

how a tobacco farmer prays god please find a cure for cancer. my lungs are muddy and full of hate

how oprah prays god look under your seat cause i dropped off an amazing prize from our guest mathew mchaunahey

how dave chappele prays god i hope my audience is smoking.

how god prays man i hope no one calls me today

how pamela anderson prays she gets Botox

how a prostitute prays, lord please remove this putrid stench from my crotch.
how a whore prays lord please dont let me get aids today.

how liu kang prays

how eddie van halen prays, plays guitar with a cigarette hanging out his mouth, spreading the gospel to the world through rock and roll he salutes himself. misses valerie so much. he was a lucky man

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how a fisherman gets through his week 1 bate at a time

Ppeeps

Building personaloties out of things that don't have a person inside

HOMEWARD

I haven't been home for a bit so my mom bought me a ticket and i leave on wednesday.  When I visit home I like to find cheap electronic circuit bending canditates. Visiting mormon thrift stores and sifting through old used up shit. handheld cassette recorders and toy keyboards are gold to me. what places sell them in nyc is ridiculous. in utah you can pick up a tape recorder from savers for 2 bucks, this is how it should be world. i'm unemployed and stirring here its pretty odd. this still feeling i feel alone isn't sufficient and instantly dissapears when i'm around people. i realized how much i love and care about my girlfriend. she is upstate right now with a friends family staying in a cabin.  she doesnt have service, so i can't text her like usual to cheer me up.  i am going to focus in utah and get a good financial plan going and try and overcome some depression maybe get some help with it.  my cigarette addiction has turned me frigid. its controlling and evil.  i let it be. but i feel like i'm not strong enough to stop. its so easy to forfeit control to our ass eating society. this economy built backwards. I just watche a negeo special drugs inc on heroin.  it is very eye opening to the problems drug cause in the health world. there is an experimental clinic in switzerland that is administiring addicts with 100% pure heroin twice a day.  the addicts say they can lead a much more normal life this way, they are able to sustain relationships, hobbies and jobs. unlike before the clinic when they were completely out of control and ashamed of their habbit.  i think this is a good approach, the doctor doesn't pull a rabbit out of the hat or trick you into thinking its a perfect program, its just designed to reach the addicts and gain trust so they can help them work on the real problems. i think its a really cool idea that is better than jail. if they got to have it they have to have it.  there is also a man in chicago that goes around to crack houses, and shooting galleries to administer fresh syringes and heroin antidode.  i think this guy is really inspiring and cool. he saves lives and helps people that are in a very strange feedback loop of death.  they are alive but stuck on one idea for way to long. its like breath to them because their brain is no longer theirs.  checkout the doc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kYiuRyLnZOk

stilla

achooo!

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scar

Best Songs of All Time

I need this list so i can fall back on it when i'm too cloudy in my head to even find these songs


Elton John-- Rocket Man
Bonnie Tyler-Total Eclipse of the heart
Fleetwood Mac- Dreams
Fleetwood Mac- Landlside
Paul and Linda Mcartney- Long haired Lady
Carpenters-Its going to take some time this time
Simon & Garfunkel- Cecelia

Joy Division-No Love Lost
Joy Division- Sister Ray
Joy Division- Shes control again
David Bowie- oh you pretty things
Lou Reed- Perfect Day
Lou Reed-Walk on the wild side
Nine Inch Nails-closer
Velvet Underground- Heroin
The Smiths- Please, Please, Please , Let me get what i want 
The Zombies- Time Of the Seasons
Tears for Fears- Women in Chains
Elliot Smith- King Crossing
The Good Life- Inmates
Dntel-Breakfast in Bed
Beach House-Used to Be
Beck-Nothing I haven't Seen
Yeah Yeah Yeah's-Modern Romance

Followup I'm racist

The ability to hold a job drips off my physical persona as I shut my eyes slippijg into sweet deep beauty sleep. I wake up in a panic forgetting who I am or what's important in my life my vision is boardered my my swollen hungover face puffed up from forgetting how to breathe or holding cigarette smoke in my lungs. I go to Jew road

Jay

Buy a copy of jay's journal

What are your interested man falling asleep whil getting drunk are you ever gonna be tall enough to slam fuck and hold your tunguebuse it liken a jiump rope as you sit down at the keys of the American alphabet language and still end up paying tend dollars to get intovb!

Keep pushing me in that god dawned direction ill push back you are being the dumb bitxh tonight I don't like this shit I song like the way you're acting it majes

I want to go to a bar and sit in.the corner.shying away from people I like to see a real man slam his arm down on the table and order a drink. I want to rethink thinking I don't want to open the trap and become less drunk than I cane here to get. Im not like others when it comes to rhythm I d9ont feel it safely I don't drop the hat at the same time as everyone else this even kills the ultimate mood

Fasgion

I hate the world of fashion all I want is a couple bucks to eat with but I'm not getting it I'm fucking sick of being pressured into just doing whatever u.need I.need some time to I'm going through a pretty rough time right now full of stress. Why can't I just be happy with a fucking job

Not racist

new songs

https://soundcloud.com/justuscaruso

phate

 some things will never b eunderstood like why a perfectly normal person can never relate on a human level wiht a blad punk rock dive bar owner, this person will always call me an asshole. the shit i don't like is the denial of sevice. ever bartender should be ahppy and willing to call up a cab for you, this asshole pointed me to a :board: of cab numbers that didn't exist. this piece of shit cunt is why bars liek that exist. fucking christ. waking up now to walk a stuttered stunted walk to the depths of gates mcdonalds, the jazziest place around. on my way i managed to scope sidewalk. i came across a pile of what seemed to be an evicted persons belongings, i picked up a heavy buddah figure and headed on my way. it was hefty in my hand as i stared at my red suade shoes that matched to a T.  it's heavy for its size and was the exact same color of red as my shoes. i like it for that.   i like that i got premium treatmenta t mcdonalds for holding it in my hand, as a manager circled me to signal the workers to make my order hastily so i wouldn't cause any trouble. the only crazy ass nigga in that mcondalds was a 5 foot 10 whit kid holding a buddha figure staringa t his feet. sppoooky.

bk delivers

wtf
https://bkdelivers.com/#!restaurantselection

X$TR33T

finally have room to move my thoughts from one side of the room to the other. finallly have time to take steps without having to cram . finally getting a cycle where things feel god. i'm in a dream or a reality or whatever it is i'm it.  new york city has saved me from suicide.  it may drive some to dig into their wrists and mope. but for me its like a video game you start out small and then build upon what you have. i spent two fucking years in a cardboard apartment that smelt like a pet store. this is a huge upgrade. the neighboorhood seems dangereous,but i like that. i thought i wanted to live closer to williamsburg, but fuck that i want to be inspired here.  its going to be perfect. this is the best winter of my life.  i'm so in love witha  beautiful girla nd no matter how many girls flaunt themselves at me they are automatically brushed off because all i can see is her. i love her

i'm home

i moved and i now can become myself again. space!

its morning now and i'm told to not fgive a fuck. amen brohter we do igt done

self

self indulgence, self truent, self concious thoughts, slef losrtles sthougts self, esteem dturned into money and keeping you clothes klean don't wlak by me if i a see you and you do't look dirty i don't wanna fucking talk to you. and i don't owe anything to you or your frieneds. i swear to god my gift is my presence, but the first person to realize will get their nose rubbed in the dirt, no dice i wanna kill most people. i live because i'm sick of trying to die and it is the only way to tgo. i see it in the worker men, the hard concrete rollers, that are diving in, life first into the seams of social problems and not to mention a lifetime prescrip[tion easisly givem to pain pills, rollling rock bettween my legs i'll eventually piss it out tomorrow durnign this shit paying job that i have ot have to hold my self up in theis big sea. theis big sea of new york shitty. i honestly think its the best place on earth, and that is a lie. the world is so big why cant we explore? why the fuck are we afraid to do what wwasn't done befeore us these cots laid out, were all going to be another dead. i used to really believe and thingk that what we didi during our life, or our wiki pedia page was something important, now i don't konow i don't fucking know why we sit around staring at screens to ease the pain of our lower thoughts our true selves, our generation is taught to aviod avoid avoid.

saems

were gonna keep doing it like we did it before when it all made sense and we were curious of the fun the older people had, turns out the older people were standinga round so smooth because of their success at ripping people off for party money, i swear to god i wont pay for another party wihtout good reason again, why do i feel like you have a little bit more control is given to you from me then i'd like you to have. feel the drag live feel that worker boy feeling kill the last thig you did.  that shit is the runner up, i'm allways running up to the smoke saying you you youy yo i'm net kick it flex dat ass dont hold bak in yo bannanaa suit this is a freeestyle bitch. feel the finger on your clit don't stop it its better than no finger at all, my spine locks into the moment and i don't know it, i don't want to know it. but my spines doing that. shits happening i've seen it all.   i don't think so

bm

the best scorpio

jfk heracrah

heartcrash
an attentive person. The Cancer is responsive.

hit the fan

right now i need to decide if i leave my dog to die alone with my mohrter, which is a terribe death. or i can go back for 2 years untill she is gone.  what i',m going to do is an alternatiave, its make dog love last forever through my life i'm going to save roxy by having a good enough place to house her.  i;m ging to afford that place by walk/training dogs. that will my my life long love for dogs last forever. i wish i would have been more stable to take roxy with me and take care of the both of us, but i could only do one.

Sometimes your evil shoulder will scream something hallway that sounds so good, then when you are finally ready to carry out that act you are completely stunted by mother nature and you decide to celebrate in a legal manner for your age at the bar getting your drink n smoke on things are so fun and good now. I don't wanna tell anyone cuz it might fuck it up and jinx its

PllpYour kids are a fire hazard and you don't even care to teach them not to play with grapes in stores that aren't there's I know what the have in store to grow older and become their father doing what they think is a good living breathing off anyone that thinks differently these Jews have history to back them up I don't know what the Hebrew on the sheer loveseat they are carrying in front of me it has a crown and probably translates to 'thug king of life' but why is it a crown and not a yamaca or top hat. Why do the women get horny and adjust they're wigs at the sight of an outsider? They're all in the back now learning about prenatal from the one that infected them with pregnancy, the std you can never lose unless you kill something. If it turns into a haseeed gangbang in the back of this store I'm selling tickets. I ask them half added if they want to try my product but they all shut me down after seeing I'm not a good salesman, people I don't give a fuck if you drink this shit with your fake gluten free diets of course it has sugar it says on the back ' oh no it doesn't have sugar I can't taste it' these Jews are dumber than I thought them living in a small closed community in the middle of a metropolis is a faux pas to learn from. You get mad when strangers hotter than your men and women bike through a public road.well guess what you don't own this ducking city and you should all get shock collars for your children or learn to parent instead of duplicating all the salaries you see walking down the street. You aren't special you are entitled to the same as everyone else just because you are brainwashed from your cult doesn't make people with dirty brains irrelevant. Business is the only place they will meet in the middle, and for that I'm here for them.they believed my stupid excuse how I was in the hospital after missing 2 weeks of work I wa.t to do a better job just to tha.k them for believing me

How the fuck are people so damn awake and jolly this early

Gluten

Gluten free things people are uneducated of what it is and who needs it unless you have celiac disease it can actually strip your diet. People are so stupid to just hear things and go with them

Anything

I don't know anything pretend to know nothing so you can spectate and not have to participate

brainz

every human has a brain including me
beasides me

<p>Everybody telling you to stand tall have good posture walk tall but if we stretch higher how do we feel the weight of ourselves.
Ii don't know why she wouldn't cheat on me she seems so miserable having to deal with me. Why does she stay? I know I love her but don't get to hug her. So what's the point I can do all this shit alone go fuck your mother with a bottle of chines food running down her sloppy chin you are not what I need anymore you will finally leave but not with me that's the way this delicate girl of a man boylilo must be handled.

Whipping my spirit trails around the city

And my arm is just a slingshot to my mouth every human has something.hitherto hide or to keep alive. I cann write about something all day but can't even put into words what I feel this shit is a joke. Drink it off drink it off. I'm in no mood for the alpha male I'm in the mood to feel the sounds.dab maybe even leak a few out of thus sick sorry sucker that is paying money to enjoy a thought. I need ti stop living in drunken words and complete the mission finallyn. My elastic voice only stretches solar and thrash punk is all I can hear, two minutes ago none of these words were her, there's a drop in.everyone's posture as I approach the bar everything is about me in myhead but once I het so far down I want to use my day off to work on.what's really important to me. I need inspiration not some Fay girls with egg parts that reach to the soutpole of the bat, if youre a girl and wondering if you're fat just ask yourself when was the last 3 pound portion you ate. Don't kill me cause I do drugs and I'm in public.the more I drink the less my hands become my own. The first thing to take my hands is my sek concious my dream my inner inserting habitation but the next thing to take thehole into your ow. Realization standing up straight even when you can't feel your feet. I want to write the most ducked up shit I could know but I still want to say no to myself. Reverse hiss down the beer as I clear my had and replace ll thoughts with something disgraceful. I needed to take my mind of locking on to something mist people don't have the patients for thinking of expression but I relieve Di and u wint let off my writing or my jaw. I swear to god if I can keep hiring these invisible buttons ill be able to go home all ok and either way I don't want to write what you want to here. As the ii intoxication builds I see the letters holding on to one another its untrue. How are so many people forced into having a "good" time every day I want to sit back and wait for all the fireball gooch concise ti me as I'm ons bike everyday, um going to start going ti all bars on the left men think they are a dripping into godsbcrwtuon but they are true

Shit just got real I've dumbed my brain down enough to be in public I have no reason other than to lose this feeling and to listen to music collectively one thing I ne never do I usually just listen to music for other people I stopped feeling the beat before I even knew it was called losing rhythm I told my self vapor was better than liquid when its really smoke that I desire something to kill me soft and not entertain ideas to anyone else I want to.drop my head into my stomache so I can puke it up. I'd also like puke up my stomachs, but I.have a stomache ache which is an icy moron because the word ache is part of the word stomache, and to throw your head up you can't swallow it you can't even feel it. What us a neck? Whetr does it start at the bottom of your spine Ir the top when your head breaks off will it dangle before it falls will Yoy catch it with your brainless arms*? I heat if you lose your brain your arms will still work fine.but you'll have ti pick up a boiling pit if eater with your wrists or Stubbs if hands instead if your fingers which are a direct line ti your brain. You'll quit thinking about yourself for two minutes and strap a saddle on your mind, ride it out all leather lasts a while but not forever. It mammal skin we all know that eventually gets eatin by worms or slits of unconscious thoughts. I need to leave my house mire often when I'm in drugs. Human beings are complex because of all the emotions we let bounce around inside us but there is never going to be a tab or fountain to screw in and let it out when you need you have to pour for it as they cal for you. I'm losing my grip again and gaining my sweat a front wall is blocked from my ears I begins to deny my sense of touch then focus it all into my sense of smell which is the least of all the senses that do break through. Almost all of my senses are completely blocked from the substances I abuse. I can sit at a fat girl next to the har and make her twiddle her hair but when will I grab it and pull it out Nd slam her face into the bar. I'm not planning a hate crime I just don't want to look up from.the bar . I should finish my beer and smoke a cigarette. I won't obey other people anymore but walk next to them

stop outsourcing

no more short cuts

mmmmean gurlz

"you smell like a baby prostitue"

mcdonalds website for black people wtf?

http://www.365black.com

Dead numb dumb four dots make a box around your head dead brain cells drilling dead dipped in smoker blow out through my nose kill cops on the block

How in the fuck has no one ever blown up new york yet.????? Where are my people

Winner

<p>There is a concious wall in front of me, it's so concious I wonder if it boarders on actually conciousness of thoughts, what about self conciousness Nd then being fully aware of it then what recommendation does it make with my hands in front of me and held really high like a raptor but with more expectations like a raptor touching base with his friend the stegasaurus I'm sure its delicious meat that you could wait for the carcass ro rot the. Rake the ribs for meat to eat of the platter metal of your choice. I just witnessed a naked woman upside down holding a sign in her naked today that said winner .font color ="#000000">of</font></p>

body anguage

theres nothing so bad about myself

body language is something to talk about.


wer're all game players wether we like it or not we all drop a hat and pick it up at different times. some of us have shells some of us live wiht our shells as a bucket for other people to FUCK IT
....up

disgusting

i come here to store my thoughts cause i know no one will ever read this shit.  new york is such a joke, why live some where you can barely exist and stick it out. when all you are is your social status or who you know. well guess what"? i don't want to know any of these assholes and i definetly don't want to consider myself one of them, i guess it took me a couple years to figure this place out and see it without its mask. i'm sure tons of people love flaunting their ego and even enjoy the company of others ego, but its not for me.  i did find an amazing girl here who i really love.  the entire purpose of me moving here was to find like minded people and be more easily accepted. since i've been here i haven't found anyone that is on the same page as me, i see a bunch of young kids trying to act older and a bunch of old people trying to act younger.  i see people say they are real, when they are just grown up versions of bullies. its a fucking joke.  the bar scene is just a funnel for your money, and time, and soul.  it will take your soul away, i haven't met anyone that does anything but drink and smoke. i honestly don't know how the fuck anyone puts up with this place. i used to feel like there was some beauty in the irony of living like this.  there is none, its ugly here, even the yoga teachers are pieces of shit. this is what all the faggots in the bible were talking about with that bad place that eventually got turned into hell. tons of people work there ass off to afford a tiny apartment, they get treated like shit no matter where they go. there is no self worth only outer social worth. you are only what you are perceived as, and its set up to be that way and stay that way.  the joke is i can't make friends here, because everything is entirely fucked up i don't even know if i make eye contact with people when i look at them. i need somewhere where i can relax not be strung out, ran thin and driven over just for hellsake.  i thought there was a heart here, but its all just eyes and genitals. what a joke, what a fucking big fat joke. thank god this isn't the capital of america its the fucking asshole of america.  i think i might get a gun and shoot up the entire city.  love doesn't exist here people just enjoy themselves around others. no magic, no stupid fucking magic. i wanted to see sparks, fireworks. AMAZING THINGS.  all i've seen here is shit, some of its tall, some of its short, some of it has an ass, some of it has a face, most of it smells like shit and tastes like shit. they say its a great place for food, and i'll admit i've not been eating at the right places, but you definetly trade in quality for quantity.  thats how it is a face for ever loser here. which if you are paying rent in new york city you are the biggest losers in america.  and stupid, programmed from media and what you see. its cloaked fascism.  ever since i arrived i haven't been able to feel clean. right after the shower the sickness of all the people creeps over you, and stays there.  there is some strange society here that is self programming and self oscillating, its cultish and i want to get away from it. i've killed 2 kids here, and i'm not supposed to care.