oddsac- late post

it was amzonggg..guess who was there?

uhh

im almost being untrue to myself while pausing agoraphobic nosebleeds new album so my girlfriend can watch cute cuddly youtube videos
holy shit this new agoraphobic album is more refined than most gold, it digests the weak new heavy bands. its almost like haha ive done this forever, and you come out trying to rip off my creation. ill do what you do even better than doing it myself the first time.

ive managed to embrace my double vision and saw you on a different level. hyold it close and fuck

Im going to ODDSAC!

yes! i am going to the sundance showing of animal collectives video album on sunday. im so excited. I guess there are perks to living in utah evey once in a while.

the thoughts

the thoughts that come into my head about america and obesity...sitting here on our inherited leather couch thinking about the meaningless...no one will hear this and nobody will stop eating if they do. look people its an addiction that you need to confront if the least. im no saint...at all

im no saint
just ...godamn america get a grip on yourself stop denying yourself like your parents did and the parents before their parents.


off subject
i used to have a fake id and i came home to my mothers too drunk, took off my pants and it shoots out of my pocket *me not knowing i went to sleep...next morning my mom comes in to wake me up and its right in front of her...burn on me for being so irresponsible...in multiple ways

wind

wind blows softer now i rembemer how to use my mouth
the air huffs and puffs,but cant blow down my house
if im okay and your okay
nobody can rub us the wrong way
clear air again clean breathing hopefully here to stay

the moon

this feeling is swelling up inside me
it feels as if im stretching
but not getting any wider, just thinner.
it feels like my lungs are wrapped like a ham
my feet are frozen to my hands
sleeps just another thing to do
to get away, like star wars kotr
or the guitar
i wish these things would entertain me forever,
i wish i didnt even have to be entertained
is there anything still living inside me
my spirit i mean... it feels numb or on vacation
i dont think its on vacation
im sooo tired of being awake

uhhm

"i'ts wrong youre going down hill, you'll never be happy"
-chars mom

she is jaw dropping

jaw drop



gorgeouS




TO NAS

i didnt think about it,

sucking bricks...WAKEUP@@@ !!!!!!!!!!

WTH= What the Hell....


use it,
may do you some good.


where are the cigarettes in this drawing?

why hasnt he killed himself yet?

"my jacket would have zippers all over in it, shoes with too many buttons."

-noah...hahahhaa my former and psychedelic teacher.
now until i have,
then change back


dont come near me



real time
,
comma
love justus

god god god 3-4 times

your feet are cold as stone...so are you though..really
cigarette?



and there she goes













"where moss and rust don't corrupt"- Not God

my own private idaho

floating under your own expectations. i haven't seen me the way i really am in a long time...or before this happened. I dont see the help in anything that pulls me away from what is believed to be reality, so im just ranting.......and finding a spot in line, to stand in the back, misuse commas, then spell correct it. things are still.





th!nGs@restill

its invisible

i used to wish
i could be heard
now i dont think
i can see

i used to
promise my word
now i dont even
believe it

so when you
ask your god
you better
be careful
what you want
cause he's got it

and its coming for you

my baby don care

"I think I'm gonna be sad,
I think it's today, yeah.
The girl that's driving me mad
Is going away.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

She said that living with me
Was bringing her down yeah.
She would never be free
When I was around.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

I don't know why she's ridin' so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
Before she gets to saying goodbye,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.

I think I'm gonna be sad,
I think it's today yeah.
The girl that's driving me mad
Is going away, yeah.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

I don't know why she's ridin' so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
Before she gets to saying goodbye,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me
.
She heard that living with me,
Was bringing her down, yeah.
She would never be free
When I was around.

Ah, she's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

My baby don't care, my baby don't care.
My baby don't care, my baby don't care.
My baby don't care."

fountain

last night sucked, i'm still here to see the christmas through. maybe i should just give you your gift and get the hell out...makes it seem like thats what you want. it wouldnt hurt. all that hurts is everyday here, same old bull shit. we do nothing healthy and then get angry when it doesnt work, wonder why we cough so much, wonder how one can continue to cope with such a longterm relationship that has been drown in bottles since day 1. how am i to go about this, where is my fucking life coach? things are cold

snowy

its that time of the year.
i put on the same music and drown myself indoors, i deal with it the exact same as always- with less supervision. my taste is gone again, the nights are long and thin. i cant feel anything but cold and drunk. and thats how i want it.

i wait untill you get home so we can sail away in a bottled ship and go nowhere, but back where we started and it hurts to breath and we fight like kids about stupid shitl.
this post is stupid fucking material
worst post ever

"youll walk on water as soon as you drown"

but i believe that lovers should be chained together

winters here, drinks arent as strong anymore and go down too easy. sleep seems too long, and the tv is constantly blasting a new sitcom from hbo or showtime. fuck other networks. winter came so fast, wheres fall? what am i still doing here? i stay up late scaring myself with computer games, bethoven records and a big bottle of purple ....ha, the purple bottle

Animal Collective - Fall Be Kind

i havent even finished listening yet. the first song really disappointed me...terrible. but i just got done with the studio version of what would i want sky and its fucking sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

give it a try

antichrist

Lars von Trier's 2009  antichrist is almost impossible for me to understand on first view. lets just say there were parts that freaked me out. for instance it shows a wild dog of some kind eating itself. insane. the gore was pretty bad, but the blood cumming penis didnt bother me. if this was intended to be shocking instead of boring at most times. i did like a lot of the camera work, awesome artistic shots.

spanish radio experiment

play yourselfffffff

growing up...yuck

people change, things die inside
the sea waves its hands at us
as its drifting away,
drifting apart

alarmed by new reactions
we chose to kill slowly
denied by youth
we're done growing.

lonesome

everything goes up and down, one day everything is floating along okay.
with no time to think.
instead my mind sinks deep into nostalgia.
do true friends exist, or only exit?
where are all the people?
p.s. I'M SOO HAPPY
its so hard to be away from home, from what i know I really wish i could comfort myself, but this time seems like a job for someone else. i wonder if things will ever change, do we go on with these sad days alone forever? i used to feel

cute things

lot lizard

a truck stop, idaho falls, its raining. i watch a lot lizard jump out of a semi truck. i see her wash her self in a puddle. i see her splash her rug with mud, scoop out the white stuff, and get into the next truck, lick, suck, fuck, and love her cure.

nasi

this girl is the shiz on top of the niz

hahahaha soooo artsy

Sonic Youth-last thursday live

last thursday.

this was an awesome show, free in utah of the twighlight series, they played with awesome color, and we drunkly pointlessly interviewed one of the dudes. the dancing was fun, and a mosh broke out. it was cool until kids started "hardcore dancing" ARE YOUF UCKING KIDDING ME, its sonic youth.

oiram-havent blogged for()fruock!iNG ever.

jenny lewis was shwankinag ored, i saw both . terminater and jenny muthaghu fucking LEwiS.


also...heard panda (Noah Lenox?) and atlas sound (deerhunter Bradford (COCKsXXX)




good blt's, good birthday, off chemo, lots of stuff is new

trying so hard

what happened to the little kid i used to have inside me?
did the liquor kill him?
or was it the sex, pills, and cigarettes?
what happens to us when we grow out of living?
maybe that child knew his limits, knew when to say when.
the bigger kid isn't so good at quitting it.
is that why you dont see my teeth when i smile?
is that tiny skeleton still buried alive?
is lack of a proper funeral the reason why i cant sleep?
i want to miscarry this second personality.
create a lung vaccuum and suck him right out of me.
please teach me how to raise the dead,
i want to go back to being a kid.
i wish i could love the taste of candy again.
all i taste now is whisky and gin.

superman is tired

caterpillar turns into a butterfly

short film i made

After Dark

just finished a really great book i can't wait to read his others. who knew japanese translated to english could be so dead on and beautiful.

DanD

woo woo

http://dl.getdropbox.com/u/767262/Pack%20Yer%20Things%20%28with%20vox%29.mp3

this is a collab with my CA forum buddy nico http://nicoskeybored.blogspot.com/

pack your things

another new song. LISTEN

Thirsty Sunday

http://www.box.net/shared/bnyjvsp5tl new song

i really needed that

i had a good day, and heres a demo song i wrote about today

being john malkovich

so i finally got around to watching this awesome flick. i love john malkovich and i dont know who plays the pupeteer, but he is my hero. this explores the ins and outs of psychotic love, human nature, and the yearning to live forever.
cameron diaz is in this, i didnt recognize her until more than halfway through ! the forty year old virgin chick is such a worthless bitch in this movie. MAXINE, stupid whore.

Sanso-xtro - sentimentalist

i've loved this sooo much for soo long, when my computer crashed i lost it and had to dig deep to find it. this is for you ian, you better download this shitssss.

GET IT

Black Moth Super Rainbow - Eating Us 2009

new black moth, oh god ERECTION, perfect time to come out for spring.

GET IT

th feeling

the constant feeling of your chest caving in, or drowning in red ants
with your 4th grade class laughing at you....
and the ants keep biting and your chest keeps sinking.
the kids keep laughing

fake plastic....ha

today has worn me out

ps. lord im adpw'fioahapppy

setting it up

bowling with glass pins,
an invisible drunk
and i'm invisible drunk
so i roll one down
knock a couple back
thinking less now that i hear more chatter
i like it less, but its getting louder LOUDER

banshee beat

i think this song is going to make me die of happiness/idontknowwhatness someday, and it wouldn't be such a bad way to go.

cars

look i don't think we should be compared to the cars they drive,
summer rain is finally falling
and for now, its all i can see.
fuck queen latifa.
stupid fatbitch














penis.

justuscaruso - a collection of songs for the broken minded

justuscaruso-2009 album
here is a glimpse into my mind
DOWNLOAD

its a monday

its a monday night and i'm bored people, i'm so god damned bored it isnt even worth reading
but love it, cause its here and its yours to read, yours to feel yours to pick up, maybe pick out from a croud
seeing you pull you hair up and then i stare up into the sky and believe, seee what i think.
god knows its a dirty sky but it's worth looking into pure hope in the essence did that even make sense
closes you eyes and it still shines through, the sun beams


okay.

now i'm going to take that ^ and write a song to it, so the EP is called song in a night, i'll edit this with a link to download, and i'm going to start posting my other shit

True Romance (1993)

this is the first movie in a while that i havent watched stoned. it is written by Quentin Tarantino (so that already tells you this is a good movie) but directed by tony scott. the main story is that a guy's boss hires a call girl for him to get laid on his birthday, they end up falling in love, getting married and such. she is afraid of her old "pimp" so Clarence(the main dude) goes and kills the slobby pimp fucker (very funny character) then instead of grabbing her bags, they end up with a suitcase full of cocaine. wow. yum. anyways...he calls his friend to sel it, and they are on the run from a sicilian mafia .....thats where the story begins now go and SEE WHAT HAPPENS

slug green, and begging for more liquor

glowing fuzz exits the pours of your skin
poison dribbles down your sun-kissed arm
the matinee is cheap, i've got tickets to the 3 o clock
poison pours down your throat
we decide to walk,

on the way we see a couple sitting together on a bench
he's holding her like a newborn flower
struck by that sight,
i turn to you
i want to know what you think
i want to know what you see
the look you mean to be on your face
as we tripped through the daisies
we played old games my grandma tought me

tickling the back of my neck for sometime now
you've been there, you know it and like it
just a little further you say not believing your own words
our legs go soggy, we collapse into folds of old records, and tv shows

tend to your fireplace

i'm laying on the sidewalk waiting for you,
and your planting mouse traps in my neighbors house