she is jaw dropping

jaw drop



gorgeouS




TO NAS

i didnt think about it,

sucking bricks...WAKEUP@@@ !!!!!!!!!!

WTH= What the Hell....


use it,
may do you some good.


where are the cigarettes in this drawing?

why hasnt he killed himself yet?

"my jacket would have zippers all over in it, shoes with too many buttons."

-noah...hahahhaa my former and psychedelic teacher.
now until i have,
then change back


dont come near me



real time
,
comma
love justus

god god god 3-4 times

your feet are cold as stone...so are you though..really
cigarette?



and there she goes













"where moss and rust don't corrupt"- Not God

my own private idaho

floating under your own expectations. i haven't seen me the way i really am in a long time...or before this happened. I dont see the help in anything that pulls me away from what is believed to be reality, so im just ranting.......and finding a spot in line, to stand in the back, misuse commas, then spell correct it. things are still.





th!nGs@restill

its invisible

i used to wish
i could be heard
now i dont think
i can see

i used to
promise my word
now i dont even
believe it

so when you
ask your god
you better
be careful
what you want
cause he's got it

and its coming for you

my baby don care

"I think I'm gonna be sad,
I think it's today, yeah.
The girl that's driving me mad
Is going away.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

She said that living with me
Was bringing her down yeah.
She would never be free
When I was around.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

I don't know why she's ridin' so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
Before she gets to saying goodbye,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.

I think I'm gonna be sad,
I think it's today yeah.
The girl that's driving me mad
Is going away, yeah.

She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

I don't know why she's ridin' so high,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me.
Before she gets to saying goodbye,
She ought to think twice,
She ought to do right by me
.
She heard that living with me,
Was bringing her down, yeah.
She would never be free
When I was around.

Ah, she's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
She's got a ticket to ride,
But she don't care.

My baby don't care, my baby don't care.
My baby don't care, my baby don't care.
My baby don't care."

fountain

last night sucked, i'm still here to see the christmas through. maybe i should just give you your gift and get the hell out...makes it seem like thats what you want. it wouldnt hurt. all that hurts is everyday here, same old bull shit. we do nothing healthy and then get angry when it doesnt work, wonder why we cough so much, wonder how one can continue to cope with such a longterm relationship that has been drown in bottles since day 1. how am i to go about this, where is my fucking life coach? things are cold

snowy

its that time of the year.
i put on the same music and drown myself indoors, i deal with it the exact same as always- with less supervision. my taste is gone again, the nights are long and thin. i cant feel anything but cold and drunk. and thats how i want it.

i wait untill you get home so we can sail away in a bottled ship and go nowhere, but back where we started and it hurts to breath and we fight like kids about stupid shitl.
this post is stupid fucking material
worst post ever

"youll walk on water as soon as you drown"

but i believe that lovers should be chained together

winters here, drinks arent as strong anymore and go down too easy. sleep seems too long, and the tv is constantly blasting a new sitcom from hbo or showtime. fuck other networks. winter came so fast, wheres fall? what am i still doing here? i stay up late scaring myself with computer games, bethoven records and a big bottle of purple ....ha, the purple bottle

Animal Collective - Fall Be Kind

i havent even finished listening yet. the first song really disappointed me...terrible. but i just got done with the studio version of what would i want sky and its fucking sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet.

give it a try

antichrist

Lars von Trier's 2009  antichrist is almost impossible for me to understand on first view. lets just say there were parts that freaked me out. for instance it shows a wild dog of some kind eating itself. insane. the gore was pretty bad, but the blood cumming penis didnt bother me. if this was intended to be shocking instead of boring at most times. i did like a lot of the camera work, awesome artistic shots.

spanish radio experiment

play yourselfffffff

growing up...yuck

people change, things die inside
the sea waves its hands at us
as its drifting away,
drifting apart

alarmed by new reactions
we chose to kill slowly
denied by youth
we're done growing.

lonesome

everything goes up and down, one day everything is floating along okay.
with no time to think.
instead my mind sinks deep into nostalgia.
do true friends exist, or only exit?
where are all the people?
p.s. I'M SOO HAPPY
its so hard to be away from home, from what i know I really wish i could comfort myself, but this time seems like a job for someone else. i wonder if things will ever change, do we go on with these sad days alone forever? i used to feel

cute things

lot lizard

a truck stop, idaho falls, its raining. i watch a lot lizard jump out of a semi truck. i see her wash her self in a puddle. i see her splash her rug with mud, scoop out the white stuff, and get into the next truck, lick, suck, fuck, and love her cure.

nasi

this girl is the shiz on top of the niz

hahahaha soooo artsy

Sonic Youth-last thursday live

last thursday.

this was an awesome show, free in utah of the twighlight series, they played with awesome color, and we drunkly pointlessly interviewed one of the dudes. the dancing was fun, and a mosh broke out. it was cool until kids started "hardcore dancing" ARE YOUF UCKING KIDDING ME, its sonic youth.

oiram-havent blogged for()fruock!iNG ever.

jenny lewis was shwankinag ored, i saw both . terminater and jenny muthaghu fucking LEwiS.


also...heard panda (Noah Lenox?) and atlas sound (deerhunter Bradford (COCKsXXX)




good blt's, good birthday, off chemo, lots of stuff is new

trying so hard

what happened to the little kid i used to have inside me?
did the liquor kill him?
or was it the sex, pills, and cigarettes?
what happens to us when we grow out of living?
maybe that child knew his limits, knew when to say when.
the bigger kid isn't so good at quitting it.
is that why you dont see my teeth when i smile?
is that tiny skeleton still buried alive?
is lack of a proper funeral the reason why i cant sleep?
i want to miscarry this second personality.
create a lung vaccuum and suck him right out of me.
please teach me how to raise the dead,
i want to go back to being a kid.
i wish i could love the taste of candy again.
all i taste now is whisky and gin.

superman is tired

caterpillar turns into a butterfly

short film i made

After Dark

just finished a really great book i can't wait to read his others. who knew japanese translated to english could be so dead on and beautiful.

DanD

woo woo

http://dl.getdropbox.com/u/767262/Pack%20Yer%20Things%20%28with%20vox%29.mp3

this is a collab with my CA forum buddy nico http://nicoskeybored.blogspot.com/

pack your things

another new song. LISTEN

Thirsty Sunday

http://www.box.net/shared/bnyjvsp5tl new song

i really needed that

i had a good day, and heres a demo song i wrote about today

being john malkovich

so i finally got around to watching this awesome flick. i love john malkovich and i dont know who plays the pupeteer, but he is my hero. this explores the ins and outs of psychotic love, human nature, and the yearning to live forever.
cameron diaz is in this, i didnt recognize her until more than halfway through ! the forty year old virgin chick is such a worthless bitch in this movie. MAXINE, stupid whore.

Sanso-xtro - sentimentalist

i've loved this sooo much for soo long, when my computer crashed i lost it and had to dig deep to find it. this is for you ian, you better download this shitssss.

GET IT

Black Moth Super Rainbow - Eating Us 2009

new black moth, oh god ERECTION, perfect time to come out for spring.

GET IT

th feeling

the constant feeling of your chest caving in, or drowning in red ants
with your 4th grade class laughing at you....
and the ants keep biting and your chest keeps sinking.
the kids keep laughing

fake plastic....ha

today has worn me out

ps. lord im adpw'fioahapppy

setting it up

bowling with glass pins,
an invisible drunk
and i'm invisible drunk
so i roll one down
knock a couple back
thinking less now that i hear more chatter
i like it less, but its getting louder LOUDER

banshee beat

i think this song is going to make me die of happiness/idontknowwhatness someday, and it wouldn't be such a bad way to go.

cars

look i don't think we should be compared to the cars they drive,
summer rain is finally falling
and for now, its all i can see.
fuck queen latifa.
stupid fatbitch














penis.

justuscaruso - a collection of songs for the broken minded

justuscaruso-2009 album
here is a glimpse into my mind
DOWNLOAD

its a monday

its a monday night and i'm bored people, i'm so god damned bored it isnt even worth reading
but love it, cause its here and its yours to read, yours to feel yours to pick up, maybe pick out from a croud
seeing you pull you hair up and then i stare up into the sky and believe, seee what i think.
god knows its a dirty sky but it's worth looking into pure hope in the essence did that even make sense
closes you eyes and it still shines through, the sun beams


okay.

now i'm going to take that ^ and write a song to it, so the EP is called song in a night, i'll edit this with a link to download, and i'm going to start posting my other shit

True Romance (1993)

this is the first movie in a while that i havent watched stoned. it is written by Quentin Tarantino (so that already tells you this is a good movie) but directed by tony scott. the main story is that a guy's boss hires a call girl for him to get laid on his birthday, they end up falling in love, getting married and such. she is afraid of her old "pimp" so Clarence(the main dude) goes and kills the slobby pimp fucker (very funny character) then instead of grabbing her bags, they end up with a suitcase full of cocaine. wow. yum. anyways...he calls his friend to sel it, and they are on the run from a sicilian mafia .....thats where the story begins now go and SEE WHAT HAPPENS

slug green, and begging for more liquor

glowing fuzz exits the pours of your skin
poison dribbles down your sun-kissed arm
the matinee is cheap, i've got tickets to the 3 o clock
poison pours down your throat
we decide to walk,

on the way we see a couple sitting together on a bench
he's holding her like a newborn flower
struck by that sight,
i turn to you
i want to know what you think
i want to know what you see
the look you mean to be on your face
as we tripped through the daisies
we played old games my grandma tought me

tickling the back of my neck for sometime now
you've been there, you know it and like it
just a little further you say not believing your own words
our legs go soggy, we collapse into folds of old records, and tv shows

tend to your fireplace

i'm laying on the sidewalk waiting for you,
and your planting mouse traps in my neighbors house

this is a VENT SESSION/freewrite

hit me out of no where and i decided to still change my mood after all that this was built for, and now I'm shining shoes, stuck on the lower deck with all the other people with actual respect for being. what is being, how many places can we exist at one time in at any one time.

clouded thoughts as usual. some things scrape me into believing i've completely lost the will to keep my life floating. that purple turquoise glow under your pillow while you sleep. thats me, and yes i do masturbate over you while you are sleeping.

Bonwater-

just finished it, its actually a really good movie. unique story line for what the name misleads. it has nothing to do with bongwater (there is marijuana usage) but thats it. i love all the actors in this movie, very good characters.

go check it out, its on netflix online watch instantly

123456:gOd

it wants you to be a part of this world

i didn't think i'd see you leaving.
a loud crowd of drenched colored people
smoke dangles in the air
this is a dark omen
so indulge in the fog of shimmering colors

beckoning you, it wants you to be a part of this world
the one you can't describe
your vision is useless, its too bright
you go deaf with your eardrums pounding,
with a pulse beating your mind
until your blind

when you recognized me you froze in the sand
how can i make you re consider
leaving hasn't left our long list of options
options you're forced me to chose
capsule's apart
my arms absorb you
to hold us together
my chest caves into your heart
///////////////
we breathe in, and out
and
we regret,
and
we forget
and
we regret
and
we forget
and we forget to remember




you can't have a cake and eat it to

we blend to the exact shade that we were born in
we make ourselves the exact shape, to fit the mold
to hold the fort, to grow old
we shrink into ourselves in folds
we breathe in the nothingness

the contrast so blinding, but its everywhere
it bleeds through my eyelids
but i cant open my eyes to see it

i really really need a glass of water
cold sweat has frozen me to my sheets
left to melt as the sun rises

am i expected to recharge?

the light hits the curtain, and the night was wasted



C
i'm laying in my bed,
E
trying to slow my heart down
C
i just jacked off
E
and i cant stop
C
and i can't stop
E
breathing so goddamn fast


C E
i lay in my bed for a while,
Am E
debating to smoke or shower,
C Am
take a bike ride, or write a song
C Am Em Am
but i hit my pipe, then reach for the bong

D
more like dreaming about
taking a shower
riding a bike,
C
or writing a song

A
i decided to go with the best of four choices,
C
i breathe purple smoke
Am
to tame my pulse
C
my mind unfolds,
G
and this is the result

and thats the result of all that is THIS

the result of all that is THIS
the result of all this
the result of all that is THIS
the result of all this






plugs.


slug green, and begging for more liquor






glowing fuzz seeps into the pours of your skin
poison dribbles down your sun-kissed arm
the matinee is cheap, i've got tickets to the 3 o clock
poison pours down your throat
we decide to walk,

on the way we see a couple sitting together on a bench
he's holding her like a newborn flower
struck by that sight,
i turn to you
i want to know what you think
i want to know what you see
the look you mean to be on your face
as we tripped through the daisies
we played old games my grandma tought me

tickling the back of my neck for sometime now
you've been there, you know it and like it
just a little further you say not believing your own words
our legs go soggy, we collapse into folds of old records, and tv shows

tend to your fireplace

i'm laying on the sidewalk waiting for you,
and your planting mouse traps in my neighbors house

NEW ))) MF DOOM - Born Like This (2009)

MF DOOM - Born Like This

1. Supervillain Intro (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
2. Gazzillion Ear (Produced By: Jay Dee (aka J. Dilla))
3. Ballskin (Produced By: Jake One)
4. Yessir feat. Raekwon (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
5. Absolutely (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
6. Rap Ambush (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
7. Lightworks (Produced By: Jay Dee (aka J. Dilla))
8. Batty Boyz (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
9. Costume Foolery (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
10. Angelz feat. Tony Starks (aka Ghostface Killah) (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
11. Cellz (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
12. Stil Dope (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
13. Better Than Beer feat. Kurious (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
14. Microwave Mayo (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
15. More Rhymin' (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
16. That's That (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
17. In Ya Dreams (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)
18. Thank Ya (Produced By: M.F. DOOM)

check out number 10 Cellz its amazing
i highly recommend this, it seems like doom just keeps better and better, a couple songs produced by jdilla
its pretty new as i understand, and its fucking awesome so i thought i would post it. more mf to love

"its like a leotard-fest"

GIVE IT A WHIRL

Fuckers

just got back from seven eleven. i walk in excited to purchase my daily fix of nicotine, approach the counter, drop my id and five bucks on the counter
"marlboro 27's"
the man turns around, searches them down and rings me up. being high, i am staring at some strange children's candy,
he say's "its $5.rurtwenty seven"."
i just keep staring at the blueberry brain popsicle candy thingy.
blank.
then after i realize he isn't contiune i say
"whuh?"
and dig in my pockets for change and put down 30 cents, he says in his indistinguishable
"no, its 5.97"
"WHUH!?!?"
i pull out a ten and replace it with the five.


fucking taxes making us want to quit. i just was about to try and quit, now utah raises taxes on smokes hoping people will quit. i dont want to quit inspite of that, those fuckers.

draft

with chips on my sandwich, and fries on my burger
slugging from couch to chair, leaving trails of empty beer
the slack catches up well versed, with fidgeting fingers pacing back and forth

captive, in my own nest, the walls smell stale and they're trying to smother me

finally you come take me out of here, take me to that place
we stain some red wine on your blanket
your fruity gum is tasteless from my cigarette
blue skies, red slides, wine, and swing sets
this is better than a kiss

show me the world through your eyes,
all this transparency turns to paradise
i halfway believe everything will be fine

dreamachine

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dreamachine

love of my life

the love of my life






...she's a character in a movie

The birds are callin' for you please don't follow

The birds are callin' for you please don't follow




spirit theyve gone, is amazing.

someone beat you to it

son, your corpse is already smoking, as those pupils of yours are growing
i wanna bend the rules for you, but someone beat me to it, something beat me to it

son, your life is seeming a little boring, maybe spice it up if you know what i mean
i thought i lent you the tools, you suckered me into it, i'm stuck in the middle of it

son, your jesus christ isnt responding, for some reason you keep praying
you thought you had me fooled, someone beat you to it, someone beat you to it

son, your night flipped to morning, alarm blasting latin your head is tearing(pounding)
you stand in your neighbors pool, your crush is cracked, i cant help but laugh at it

son, you had her parents blessing, love is a fast thing full of hurt that sticks
i want to give them a clue, i know they wont get it, old sunburnt minds unfit

son, your down to the last screening, black background, credits rolling
i see i'm listed as part of the crew, but at the end of it, last on the end of the list


hey thanks, pincushion.
hey fake,one question,
oh,forget it
and just to mention
i quit our friendship

i beat you to it
take that
i beat you to it
i beat you to it
take that
....ssoooooo juuuuuusssst
forget it, forget it
take that
take that
take that
take that
take that
take it
take it
take it
take it
like that
like that
like that
like that
like that
like it
like it
like it
like it
take that THAT
like that
take that THAT
like that
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT
take that THAT

two peas in a pod

can addicts really fall in love?
and will the cravings for you ever stop?

forust.

Forust

behind me trails the wasted days
the earth torn path along the lake
whispering leaves bundled in bouquets

your green eyes glow through the forest
dressed in vines, always modest
so how do we get out of this mess?

tree's haunt me with a knotted face,
portraits fall as the bark decays.
the branches break, then are replaced.

this year winters been one of the coldest
as hungry village folk wait for harvest,
dreams of corn so yellow they can taste it
I can taste us,
we taste like rust.