Brain Process

so here we are and there it is. staring back at us like it wishes it could know it all,  but it will only move to show off..and reach way to far. search but not be found, in this hell. we reach for it to pull it towards us, but the flow is interrupted our thoughts continue to be useless... not even floating down the river.. just struggling and hurting ourselves in the freedom of the water. something in me is holding against every single current that is on life's side. is getting older the same as dying? for some reason i thought we would be revealed the truth, not get more lost in the open.  touching my thoughts i pull back a bit. i’m sick of sabotaging what i know i want.  i wanted her, she wanted me, but i couldn’t decide so i dove head first into the decision i knew was wrong.earlier it matter but now so much anymore i’d rather get gagged and straddled into the wind where the hammock sways and we lay in peace this dysfunctional fucking comedy is making me feel very guilty for laughing. doctor and cocaine.  the perfect love couple that keeps them both interested. fun. amen. die now.

i use the dot dot dot’s to avoid bad grammar...which in turn formulates the bad grammar. fuck this shit and the coma is just a sit or spin live or deal. split or stay. someday it will matter.

death of facebook

i finally clicked on people you may kknow on facebook and to my surprise a shit fuck ton of people from my past showed up. so of course like any other person now days i checked out what each of them were up to. holy fuck i am so much bettter off and literally more badass then every single one of them.  this kid named jesse bohannon looks like such a hipster dissapointment.  haha and ryan rudd went on a fucking mission.lolz. this is great the girl i loved in high school just got uglier.! this place is a circle that you can get trapped in if you arent smarter than the circle. looksl ike all these people are content on their douchebaggery. god i’m glad i got out of here these games they play and the blindness the insist on keeping i love it. i used to get somewhat jealous of the people i would find online, but wow i’m really doing the right thing with my life.  i am glad to be alive and where i am at today. i have an amazing carreer laaid out ahead of me , plus i can get any girl i want. these people think they can be cool cause they say they are, but they are ridiculous am i the only one that can see that? no wonder they have stayed friends since childhood they are content on holding eachother back and love the sick humor behind it.  they can easily convince any girls of this because that is what you need to get a girl to fall in love with you. a good actor. you need to have a cocky stance and posture ready to peck away competition by out lying them or out dueing them. i just want to make great records so i don’t have to tell eveyone how good i am, they can judge if they like my style or not.  i kind of want to get stronger so i can talk shit to these retards from my past and defend myself.  i was friends with some of them but they never cared about anything.  hahah i guess that prooves now as i get the last laugh.