fountain

last night sucked, i'm still here to see the christmas through. maybe i should just give you your gift and get the hell out...makes it seem like thats what you want. it wouldnt hurt. all that hurts is everyday here, same old bull shit. we do nothing healthy and then get angry when it doesnt work, wonder why we cough so much, wonder how one can continue to cope with such a longterm relationship that has been drown in bottles since day 1. how am i to go about this, where is my fucking life coach? things are cold