Friday, March 28, 2014

Baedine

WARNING : truth in these words you may not want to hear. 


The cool news for me is that I'm growing stronger because of this, what's sad is you never admit your faults , so you just lose out on that. You lose me and you lose a part of yourself. I gain me and a huge part of myself you've been sitting on cramping for way too long. I hate how you treat me, no wonder I don't trust you. You don't give a fuck what I do, you say so yourself. I actually feel sorry for the guy that is surely going to make you a single mother.  I hate how you make me feel, you can't acknowledge anything I've accomplished as good you just say I haven't done shit. Bullshit. You are such a wad of bullshit, and my radar has been going off the whole time. Just because I don't get a lame ass report card doesn't mean I haven't accomplished things. Good for you for accomplishing your goals, too bad you have no modesty(I mean that in multiple ways, promiscuous- girl) I don't know if you're manipulating me consciously or if you're such a bitch you've convinced yourself you're right. The best part is, I'll never regret this because I'm dropping a disease, that's 3 in one year. A+. Now you have to live with yourself ALONE.  Good thing I don't mind being alone. I'm sure you'll keep making excuses and distract yourself from truly looking in the mirror. Maybe now that you can get laid every Thursday without having to worryit you'll attract another sorry sucker to fuck with. Live it up girl. My situation Is not cause you're a strong person Nadine, you're flimsy you fold to whoever you're with. Don't flatter yourself so much. You will agree just to be accepted. That's why I got mad the night of yours truly I got so frustrated at you being such a phony.  I hope you read all of this because it is my deepest farewell. Thanks for helping me grow and realize I don't need you're dysfunctional love. You'll probably die in denial. That I'm sad for. I did make you up in my head because it was too painful to see what I was really dating after the year mark. You've held my balls in a negative cycle (I am a sucker for them) for too long, it's time for you to move on to your next sad lost boy that needs somebody.  Because you attract what you are at the time, and it seems to be a pattern with you. Of course I have my problems but one of them is to not deny the blame. I accept fully what I haven't done to end this earlier. I should have been more of the man I am, I just feel so manipulated in circles and circles. Good luck. Next time you're Screaming at your family think- you have known mental illness the entire time. Btw I hate your mother seriously. Someday  you're going to be as close minded and obsessed with social status as her , if you aren't already.
Again,
Goodluck ! I believe I felt love for you at one time, I wish I didn't become this fucking pussy and let everything fly for so long. Denying my heart. At least I can admit that.  

Ps. 
Anyone you find will have a problem with you're need to be promiscuous, not just me. Seriously did you think I was stupid?  if you find a guy that's down... expect a lot of other women in your bed. Also I really hope your career in tumblr art takes off maybe I should get an autograph? Also don't forget to bring condoms over seas this summer. Or don't, they have abortions in London right? 
❤️😒👎

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

snarestorm

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Tuesday, March 25, 2014

LOL


Monday, March 24, 2014

1/2/2014

What sucks in this world is when you realize the future is death and nothing truly matters fuck tv, fuck your tattoos fuck your face if anyone even wants to do that, with me that's the case .it also sucks when you are the only one to see this and you want to  end your life but out of stupid human empathy you can't because you will hurt the people that beleive they love you . It's selfish to kill yourself and to love somene god is dead and so are we . Fuck fame too . How do I get around this situation? I'm not gonna kill the people who love me just so I can do myself in. The only thing I want in life just hurts me so what's the fucking point when your dick is dry and your heart is numb or dead. It only beats at the sight of a female fucking the fall of mankind holding all control. I now chose to give up control I am going to spread this hate but I don't know how yet. The planning starts now. I will begins by not showing anyone any of my emotions appearing to be a sociopath to the outside I will not show a single sad emotion my body is now a wall that will hold everything out. Love is an excuse to be happy when all there is is constant pain. I can't remember he last time I enjoyed anything but sticking my finger inside her ass. I like sex and cigarettes but I don't enjoy cigarettes. I enjoy some music but I'm told it tucks with your head. What do you do when all your heros commuted suicide or we're completely insane everyone is insane. I need to get out of amerca or out this planet. This angry is hard to melt and downy stop no after how deep it goes. I don't know where it started and it seems to have no end. I guess all life is born to die and I should be ready all the time, what  does that do to my nerves? What am I hiding from myself? Who can help me but me if I don't know. I'm drowning but continuously, never dying just not breathing . My brain is dead cause in fucked were all fucked so why be happy it isn't a state of being it happens when you cum. Which isn't love it's a drug too. The only thing I enjoy in life is a form of a drug. Love is a drug and so are pets, phones; books , computers, dreams, music, movies, the earth is a giant drug that we're too afraid to burn through. I truly wish the app polyphase wold come right now I want this world to melt and the sun to disappear to all things. I'm gonna.

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