i have been feeling afraid. I had no idea this was fear until recently. it masked itself in the most bizarre ways. I am afraid to try anything. I am scarred to get to know anyone because they will eventually die…possibly before me. I'm scared to death of death. I always pretended like I didn't care I had no god. because I was stuck. I have a fear of jobs, why is it another fantasy world i've created of hell. I find old things I owned. i'm afraid of being paid for my passion. i'm afraid of feeling what i am.