Thursday, October 23, 2014

another october

i have been feeling afraid.  I had no idea this was fear until recently.  it masked itself in the most bizarre ways.  I am afraid to try anything.  I am scarred to get to know anyone because they will eventually die…possibly before me.  I'm scared to death of death.  I always pretended like I didn't care I had no god.  because I was stuck.  I have a fear of jobs, why is it another fantasy world i've created of hell.  I find old things I owned.  i'm afraid of being paid for my passion. i'm afraid of feeling what i am.

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